I am older, I hope a bit smarter and really don't give shit like I used to so the ride will be fun..

11 years ago I decided with the encouragement from a friend to start a blog - a mommy blog to be exact…. SMH. I had an idea of what this world was, but not quite sure it was going to be for me. I cussed a lot, wore black, listened to metal, and did not feel like I would belong to some of the picture perfect mommy blogs that were out there at the time. But you know what, I was up for the challenge, I said what the fuck let’s give it a try for at the very least it was something for me to do so my brain would not turn into new mom mush. It was an eye opening experience and I loved it. I got to interact with new and not so new moms who where at the same part of life I was. We laughed, we cried, we cussed and we all bitched and it was really therapeutic. To this day I still have ladies I speak to through having met through this pretty amazing mom community. It was hard for me during this time because I really did not have anyone I could lean on. I had just lost my mom a year prior and my father was in his own world. My husband and I were tossed into this new parent world and it was either sink or swim. I had some very close friends who to this day are my ladies, however none of them had children and were living their best Sex and the City life in the Bay Area. Jealous!

When I first started vomiting my brain to the blog world, things were a bit different and social media was not the monster it is today. I did most of my fun bitching for me and not everyone else but through different mommy rooms and blog sites we all found one another and my blog did quite well and I was told on more than one occasion that it was funny and folks could relate to my daily dumb shit I said or did. It was a great release and it gave me a break from the daily routine of being a SAHM. I never thought I would enjoy it as much as I did. You got me…raw, unfiltered and non apologetic and sometimes if not many times full of typos. About a few months ago, I decided it was time to start up again. For my sanity, to share some of the bullshit I am now going through as a mom in midlife while raising a tween. The good, the bad and the hot flash, bitch hair roller coaster ride.

I am going to take it slow and steady because shit has certainly changed and I have a whole new format to teach myself. So things might sound weird, look weird and we will definitely not be IG filtered. Hope you can join me on this new self discovery ride called midlife.

Cheers,

Me